Okay so there’s this website called litographs that prints entire(or almost entire) books onto t-shirts. I mean seriously. look at this shit.
They have Le Mis
They have the phantom of the opera
They have the adventures of sherlock holmes
They have Leonardo da Vinci’s note books
They even have EDGAR. ALLAN. FREAKING. POE.
I AM SO EXCITED GUYS YOU HAVE NO IDEA
you can get them here
It’s 3 in the morning and I woke up randomly and now I can go back to sleep. The past few days have been weird. I’ve just been in a funk and it feels like the major depression I had during my sophomore year of high school. I’m lying in bed and it doesn’t feel comfortable no matter what position I try.
Lately I’ve just been feeling like I don’t fit in. I don’t know why, though. I’ve been pretty social, but at the same time I feel alone. I don’t feel like anyone really understands me. And frankly, I don’t even understand myself. I’m just a nomad of sorts: floating from one thing to the next to feel something. Do I actually feel things?
School is coming to an end, technically. I mean the semester is almost over, then there is a thing called “May Term”. I have a little anxiety over that because my college has become my home. It’s where I feel myself the most. My actual “home” doesn’t feel like a home. My mom is always gone and my sister, who is about to have a baby, is always working. And I’m stuck there alone with no one to talk to. Then when they’re home none of us really talk to each other because we’re doing different things with our lives. It’s like living with roommates you met through a personal ad on the internet, we get along just so we can live together and that’s about it.
I want to start becoming financially independent from my mom, but I don’t know where to go from there. I don’t have a car, so I’m not even a real person. I also don’t have car or health insurance which is pretty stressful. More so the health than the car because, like I said earlier, I don’t have a car.
I hooked up with a guy this week and we didn’t use a condom. He said he was clean, but I’m still going to get tested maybe tomorrow (technically today).
I think all of this funky feeling is coming from the realization I had the other day that I don’t have my shit together. I thought I did, I really did. But the events of this week just made me realize I was nowhere near. But I’m telling myself that it’s okay because I’m still young and there’s all the time in the world. Besides who in my age group has their life together at this point?